I have been praying and thinking a lot lately.  There are a few decisions that have to be made soon concerning life in general and my placement in the ranks of the army of God.  I have not written very much because I am very concerned about being a stumbling block or an instrument of offense.  Some seem to think I have been the instigator of division in the Body already.  So I have waited, prayed, and pondered.

I thought that I wanted to see my church grow.  I was wrong. What I really want to see is transformed lives.  My true desire is not just to see more people in church, not just to add more to the number of inwardly focused bodies sitting on pews, but to see instead a radical group of servant-soldiers interested in what God is interested in.  And willing to fight for it.

I want to see the arms of the Body of Christ reach out to grab, hug, hold and comfort a dying world.  I want to see the legs of the Body of Christ start running to get to the place where those trapped in service to our enemy are, wherever that may be.  I want to see the eyes of the Body of Christ constantly gazing beyond the walls surrounding our assembly to seek those desperately in need of a new Lord.  I want to see the lips of the Body of Christ speaking the words of love and acceptance that the lost and lonely want and need to hear.  I want to see the heart of the Body of Christ beating passionately for the mission that is being sidetracked by selfishness.  I want to see the tears of the Body of Christ that should flow from our current inability to effect change in the community around us.

I want to see the atheist become a believer, the sinner become a saint, the unchurched become attendees, and the disillusioned become enlightened.  But what I want the most is to see the self-centered become sacrificially concerned with the harvest of souls all around us.  We must stop being so concerned with our own comfort and desire and turn those concerns towards the ones that Jesus is concerned about.

When ‘church growth’ is mentioned anymore it is usually about figuring out how to get people to switch from church A to church B or how to get more people like ourselves in the pews.  We have become a double minded and apathetic church.  Double minded in our wonderful but empty words about growth and apathetic in our solicitude towards the lost.

I feel that I have not been effective in my service to the Kingdom.  As a teacher I believe that there should be a lot more evidence of transformation in the lives of those that have been entrusted to me than I have seen.  I believe it is time for me to re-evaluate my position in the Body to make sure I have not failed too badly and am in the right place.  I hope and pray that I have not caused irreparable damage.  I have no one to blame and am not looking for consoling words.  This is a struggle in me to determine what steps I may need to take next.

I am writing this to let all of you who do care know some of what is going on.  I am saddened but still at peace.  I struggle for answers but I rejoice in God’s grace.  Serving Christ is always sweet but I have to say, it is also sometimes bittersweet.

Pray with me.

Love you all

Tags: army of god, atheist, Body of Christ, Church, Grace, Hope, jesus, Kingdom, mission, Self, Selfishness, Servant, Service, Sinner, Trust, War

“Okay, I’ll do it,” Susie said determinedly.

“Cool,” her boyfriend Jack exclaimed.  “This may be the last vacation we get to go on for a while or you know that I wouldn’t even ask.”

“I know.  I just wish I had not gone through more than seven months of this.  When we decided to try it you did not even bring this surfing trip up.”

“I’m sorry, baby.  I didn’t think we would have the money.  But that bonus was enough for this and what we will need now too.”

Susie asked, “How long until we get there?”

The couple had been driving for six hours.  They were heading for the beach.  Jack had thought he would have to surf without her.  He hated the idea.  They both loved surfing and had not been able to go for more than two years because of new jobs which had caused them to have to move.  He loved it so much though, and she was the one that wouldn’t give in.

“We can get off the next exit and see but I would bet there is probably one of those new chop shops somewhere close”

He was right.  They found the shop within an hour and pulled in the parking lot.  It was pretty full and he just hoped they could get serviced quickly.  They still had about twelve hours of driving ahead of them.  They would probably have to spend the night somewhere.  He had hoped to make it by morning but if Susie could surf with him it was worth it.

They went in and signed in at the counter and picked up a brochure and sat to discuss its contents.  After about twenty minutes their names were called.  They were directed to a small but comfortable room with a bed and a couple of chairs.  Then a tall man in white joined them.

“I am Dr Walters.  What can we do for you today?”

“We want the Drop and Hop procedure.  It is a little expensive but we don’t really want to waste any time.  We’re going to the beach on vacation,” Jack answered.

The doctor smiled and said, “That’s great.  How far along are you?” he asked as he looked at Susie’s belly.

“Seven months and ten days.  It was due on May 4th and we had arranged already to sell it to one of those sterile families but,” she stopped and just smiled sheepishly.

“That’s okay,” the doctor said, smiling back at her.  “A lot of young couples are doing it also.  But there is no sense in letting it ruin a vacation.  We might even be able to bring it out alive still if you chose a different method.”

Jack jumped in, “No, we don’t need the money like we did.  We’ll still go with the Drop and Hop.”  Susie nodded.

Dr Walters smiled at the eager couple and nodded.  “No problem.  We’ll have that fetus out in 30 minutes or less or you get your money back.”  He laughed at his own joke while they joined him even though they were too young to remember the old commercial the doctor referenced.  “All joking aside, this new procedure will allow you to be rid of this minor inconvenience within two hours and you’ll be on your way.”

“Awesome,” Jack said as Susie nodded and smiled.  “Surfs up,” she thought.

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This is my sorry attempt at horror fiction.  It is horror because it is probably not that farfetched or too far in the future.  The life of the unborn is already seen as cheap and in many cases an inconvenience.  If we keep on the way we are now on the issue of abortion, don’t be surprised if this little sorry piece of fiction becomes prophetic.

Jason has a post on his blog here where he asks for some practical solutions to this issue.  It is time we took this on as the main issue in our culture and society that we need to address.  No, not address, we need to do something real.  We need to go a lot farther than we are in our attempts to change people’s minds about abortion.  And since I believe Jesus is the only one that can change minds, it has to start with the gospel.  We should be more than barbarians.

Go to Jason’s blog and share your thoughts there as well as here.

Love you all

Tags: Abortion, chop shops, Culture, Hope, Lies, Life, Service, Sin, Worth

Then He said to the disciples, “It is impossible that no offenses should come, but woe to him through whom they do come! Luke17:1 NKJV

The He in the scripture used above is Jesus. He was warning us that we will be offended. And we all know that if we have spent any time at all being a live human. But this post is not about offense, or even forgiveness. Instead I submit another statement as one that Jesus could just as readily have said and it is:

“It is impossible that no criticism should come, but you also will criticize.”

Ever since the fall, things have not been right. Creation is not “very good” anymore. With that fact of reality, there is going to be many opportunities for criticism. Julie said the following in a comment on Tuesdays post.

“Criticism is definitely necessary in order to provoke change in human beings as well as methods and procedures.”

This is what criticism is all about and why it has to occur. We must do our best to align ourselves and all the things we say, do, think, or desire with the original “very good” state of God’s creation. We are to strive to be like God, to become more Christlike every day. To achieve even a modicum of success at this, we must be criticized and learn to accept criticism for what it is. It is those words that provoke change in us, or they should. Change in the way we are, or the way we think, or what we are doing with our life.

Shannon, over at Hope Aflame, was telling me about an upcoming meeting with his professor concerning his submitted thesis for seminary. It didn’t sound like he was altogether thrilled at the notion but as we talked the necessity of the meeting was clear. He needs it. He needs to have his work critiqued not only to find out if he is right but to prove to himself and his professor that he knows what and why he believes. Criticism helps us grow if we are open to that growth. And that growth brings us in line with our goals of becoming like our Savior.

We are all wrong sometimes. We are fallen human beings living in a war torn creation. How could we not be? But any person hungry to be like Jesus has to be not only open to criticism but to actively pursue it. Criticism can sharpen us, quicken us, and stimulate us. Have you ever lost a debate but knew you were right. A good critique can make you better the next time. John Sanders needs a little criticism about his debate with James White on Open Theism. He had the better argument, in my opinion, but failed miserably in his delivery.

Is criticism always good? I would have to say no.

Wayne asked in a comment, also on Tuesday, “Is there a difference in being critical vs. being negative?”

I believe there is but I also know that some of our critical attitudes are nothing more than negative attitudes. As some of the others commented, we are sometimes quick to say how bad the sermon was, or how pitiful the music is. We let others know how messed up their lives are when we hide so much of our own. We look at a fallen minister and say things like “How could he” or “He should have known better”. We should never hesitate to speak out against sin, but should we even wonder how it could happen in someone else’s life when we ourselves are so messed up. And if you aren’t, then praise God. I know I need His grace and mercy daily, not just once or twice a year.

Some of us are just negative by nature or nurture. Some of us are jealous and envious of others successes, gifts or abilities. Then we become bitter and negative after a period of letting these emotions reign in our lives. The criticism we then offer has nothing more behind it than the need to hurt someone else, because we hurt.

Before we criticize I believe we should ask ourselves some questions. Could I have done any better? Do I have a solution to offer? Does this really matter? Why do I feel the need to offer up any particular criticism? Is it my place?

We all need criticism and should offer criticism. We all need to accept it in the way we want the other to accept ours. We must not hesitate to offer it up when necessary and we need not always be gentle about it. Jesus softly criticized the disciples when they wrongly criticized the woman with the alabaster box in Matthew 26. He also offered up harsh criticism to the Pharisees, in the form of woes or warnings of severe punishment, even calling them names, in Matthew 23.

The first example only dealt with a style of worship but the second had eternal ramifications. For the Pharisees and those they were leading. Evaluate what type or level of criticism is needed in all situations. It may be that none is needed because it just doesn’t matter.

Or you may need to pound it into them because of the eternal stakes.

Whatever the case, remember this. It is impossible that no criticism is ever going to be needed. At least not until we all get to go home. Can you handle it? You need to because it is for your own good, however it is delivered.

Love you all

Tags: attitudes, Christlike, Creation, Grace, Hope, Love, Mercy, Self, seminary, Sin, thesis

Today is the day that some of us celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ.  And today is the day that some just enjoy another holiday.  It is also a day which some try their best to ignore because they feel it is a pagan holiday or one for only those bigoted, intolerant people known as Christians.

Whatever your view, and I am sure there are some others, it is still Christmas day.  Whether you try to change it by refusing to say Merry Christmas or just ignore it, you simply cannot change the fact that a little over two thousand years ago, God took it on Himself to become one of us in the person of Jesus.  Submitting Himself to the indignity of being birthed the same bloody, nasty, helpless way that you and I were born.

If a king or a presidents or even a CEO’s son was being born today, they would be surrounded by the best of facilities and personnel, ready to attend to that special new baby.  A clean, sterile environment, cutting edge technology and only the finest doctors would be in order because of the VIP status of the newborn child.

But the King of Kings, the Lord of Glory, the Alpha and Omega, the very Creator of all came to us and was born in the cold of night, surrounded only by a stable of dirty, smelly stable animals.  Nothing clean and nothing warm except the loving arms of Mary were there for this baby who was God.

He came to be among us, to feel what we feel, to experience what we experience.  And it seems He decided to do all of this on the lowest, most common level.  Why?

He did this because He wanted to truly have a relationship with us.  He did all of this because He loves us and He wanted us back.  I am humbled just imagining it all.

I asked you what you enjoyed most of all about this holiday a couple of days ago.  There is no wrong answer to this because it is purely subjective.  And as some noted, it seems to change from year to year based on a number of things.  Family, age, level of spirituality, all of these must affect our answer.  I know for me it seems to change every year as I grow in Christ.

This year, I would have to say that the best part of Christmas is the fellowship opportunities.  As I have said a few times lately, I have a growing hunger for relationships and fellowship with those others in the Kingdom of God.  I believe it must be a sign of maturity in the faith and a necessary component of Kingdom advancement.  We do not spread the gospel or make disciples by being alone.

A lot of people, me included, have looked at Christmas in America and have knocked it and bemoaned the passing of the true celebration of Christ’s birth.  I still see all of the commercialization of this sacred holiday and am saddened by it.  But I must admit that I am not as upset as I have been in the past.  The Holy Spirit has directed me to some things that I want to share.

Christmas is becoming more and more commercial and secular.  But as I look around, I see something that I did not notice before.  That is that love is more evident at this time of year than any other.

People reach out to those in need.  Shoebox ministries to needy kids, the inevitable ringing bell and red kettle in front of Wal-Mart, families being bought food and gifts for the holiday, pleasant attitudes and well wishes in business establishments, and other small and large things that we can see going on around us, if we’ll take the time to notice.  Even the greeting of Happy Holidays, although upsetting to some, is better than the nothing we get all the rest of the year.

And all of this is being done by more than just Christians.  I have been wished a Merry Christmas by some that I can’t even imagine in a church.

I am naturally skeptical and probably a little pessimistic.  But this year, I have been awakened to the fact that there is still some good in this world; and some good people.  It just seems that after a full year of self-centered attitudes, most people let it go for a little while in December and are filled with at least some love for one another.

It has to be because of what the holiday really stands for.

As I said earlier, a little over two thousand years ago, the very epitome of true love stepped off the throne and entered into creation.  A baby named Jesus came to fulfill a rescue mission.

The wonder of it all still fills the air to this day.

I hope that you all have a really wonderful, very merry, Christmas!

Love you all

Tags: America, Believe, Christians, Church, Creation, Creator, Fellowship, God, Good, Holy Spirit, Hope, Jesus Christ, King, king of kings, Kingdom, lord of glory, Love, Merry Christmas, pagan holiday, Relationships